Kristen Stewart Couldn't Cope with Fame
It seems being in the spotlight hasn’t always been smooth sailing for Kristen Stewart, who became famous in 2008 when she played Bella Swan in Twilight.
In an interview with Elle magazine, she revealed, “I went through so much stress. I had panic attacks, I used to puke every day and very casually, too.” But she does explain that it wasn’t down to an eating disorder, but due to constant stomach aches.
"I couldn't anticipate what was going to happen in a given situation, so I'd be like, 'Maybe I'm going to get sick' and then I'd be sick,” she added.
The 26-year-old, who dated her co-star Robert Pattinson, also explained that she is learning how to deal with her obsessive compulsive disorder (OCD).
“As I am getting older I'm going into my OCD. If things are a mess, I feel like I have lost everything. So I procrastinate by tidying, which is so stupid,” she tells the magazine.
Her smart solution sees her getting far more done, "I say to myself, 'Just do what you need to do. If you want to write something, if you need to get a thought out, if you need to call someone about something creative, do it now! You don't need to organise your desk first.”
There was a time when she realised she needed to alter her thinking, to avoid her mental health issues that she suffered from, from getting to her, “I changed, that's the thing - at a certain time point I realised that the fear was death, but I had gone through so much that did not kill me... sorry, I know that sounds dramatic... I realise the anxiety just ran out. I didn't have the energy to do that anymore.”
Fortunately, Stewart now has a far more positive outlook on life and her future, “I am confident that life is good and I'll be OK whatever happens… So, in moments when that is cloudy and I feel saturated and unable to engage in how good life can be, however consuming those feelings are, they are so momentary... I think I’m pretty good at being happy.”
The actress is in Woody Allen’s film Café Society, which is set to be out later this year.