George Clooney has revealed he contemplated suicide as he
struggled to cope with the pain of a spinal injury while filming the acclaimed
movie Syriana in 2005.
The actor insisted on doing his own stunts for the tense
spy drama, for which he gained weight and grew a beard, and one fight scene
left him in crippling agony.
As he recovered in hospital after the movie wrapped he
admits he thought about ending his life because the pain was too great.
He tells Rolling Stone magazine, “I was at a point where
I thought, ‘I can’t exist like this. I can’t actually live’.”
“I was lying in a hospital bed with an IV (intravenous
drip) in my arm, unable to move, having these headaches where it feels like
you’re having a stroke, and, for a short three-week period, I started to think, ‘I may have to do something drastic about this’.
“You start to think in terms of, you don’t want to leave
a mess, so go in the garage, go in the car, start the engine. It seems like the
nicest way to do it.”
All the pain was rewarded at the Oscars the following year
when George won a Best Supporting Actor Academy Award for the role of Bob